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all the posts beinning from ' another twist of love' to beyond borders 2007' are from my previous blog in friendster. tq.

Beyond Borders 2007

Pengalaman yg xleh dilupakan sepanjang program. Ada yg klakar ada ug memalukan, x krg yg letih dan menyedihan. But it all makes me stronger and better!

1) "PC fun" tulah ayat yg selalu diuar2kan shafik. head PC kitaorg. serious mmg fun! tiap2 kali mesyuarat mmg ada jer klakar tahap dewa yg dia buat. tambah plk dgn kuasa klakar din dgn zul, mmg klakar giler dorg ni! aku plk dok tersengih jer kat tepi nk wat klakar gak tp xde talent.haha.

conclusion : PC mmg FUN!

2) Kena jaga PAM Carnival Day bhgian jual-menjual. Cuak aku bl shafik srh aku pgg mende nih. x penah2 aku organize benda cam nih sekali dia bagi baik punya! Benda BESAR nih, bkn kecik! maka bermulalah episod aku mencari pak cik dgn makcik psr mlm nk jmpt dorang dtg meniaga kat karnival kitaorg nih. tima kasih kpd fern yg teman aku pg psr mlm kat tmn melati. pergh, experience mmg byk dpt time ni. blh plk wat muka slamber mcm kitaorg xde kat dpn mata! ada lg klakar, fern dh ckp kemain lg kat mak cik sorang nih alih2 rupanya dia jual SAYUR! hahaha, klakar giler! mau x malu fern. haha. rilek fern, rilek. pastu hilmi dan hazwan jgk , tlg dlm cari org2 nih. juga tima kasih kpd kak zehan yg tlg contact domino's pizza. thank you!

conclusion : alhamdulillah, hari tu sumer berjln lancar. TQ kpd sumer yg terlibat! TQ500x!

3) Nak pg CM. Maka pada satu mlm itu aku bersembang2 dgn en. hazwan. adapun dia berkata bahawa dia dtg ke uia dgn menaiki sebuah kereta. aku yg dgn ikhlas mempercayainya pun mengajak pg ke CM esok dgn sangkaan bahawa dia mempunyai sebuah kereta! Tup tap esk time nk pg aku dgn muka confidentnya mengajak lg beberapa org lain, namely fern, qiz and tasnim. aku igt hazwan wat klakar jer bl dia ckp dia xde keter tp bl dia tanpa putus asa bertanyakan dimana keter aku maka kuarlah peluh sejuk dari dahi aku! rupanya dia igt aku ada keter pastu blh plk aku igt dia ada yg keter! maka terjadilah perkara plg memalukan spnjg beyond borders ni berlangsung kpd aku. pergh, sgt malu hingga aku terus bk tanpa berkata apa2 kpd dorang yg menadi 'mangsa'. sori beb! sori!!!!!

conclusion : lain kali jgn naik 'keter' hazwan!! haha

4) jaga PAM opening nite bhgn lampu hall. mmg kelam kabut mlm tu. shafik dgn gimik dia yg x siap2 pastu lgsg x rehearsal. dgn hilmi yg cuak gila nak mati psl kena jd floor master. pastu suhail, din, dgn azhari yg dgn komited tnp penat lelah menyiapkn beyond borders nyer dominos. sape ada mlm tu tau apa mende nih. tp mmg cantik !! gud job! dlm kul 7 baru nk assemble org bg tugasan msg2, pastu bl x ckp org saper2 je yg ada dkt2 situ pn kn jgk! mmg kecoh! nasib baik ak kn bhgian lampu hall. tutup time opening pastu bkk blk bila sume dh habis. yg ak tau sgt kompleks nk 'jaga' CAC nih rupanyer! suis gila byk nk mati! nasib baik abg IP sumer sporting. ckp apa dorang ikut jer. TQ!

conclusion : it's an event to be remembered. with lots of fun and experience!

promises

Promise me, when u are out there
be urself, never be what others want you to be

promise me, when your feelings down and gloomy
cheer urself up, get the positive of life

promise me, when u are happy
cherish the moment, as happy times often forgotten

promise me, when u are sad
wipe the tears, and keep going on

promise me, when u are in love
u will love him unconditionally, as true love always gives

promise me, when u achieve ur objectives
u remember the lessons it thought, as life comes from experience

promise me, when someday, u are somebody
u will remember and appreciate those who helps u along the way

promise me, when u are old and wrinkled
u will have families and friends that will never leave u

promise me, to always remember me cause i will never forget u.

what is this about feeling?

All of us hopelessly and endlessly indulge ourself in the game of feelings. Understandably it is that makes a human, humane. Yet most of the time what we care is just the feeling which concerns on ourself, us only. The part which we are involved or at least will feel the consequence after a decision or an incident had happen. At a tender age like me and all others alike, the maturity of processing feelings accordingly are still not within our grasp. Yet to say that the decision youth made of their feelings are incorrect is absurd. Everybody have feelings, nobody disagree with that. They say youth must express themselves, youth should give their bits to the futures. And I without any disagreement agree with it and before all of that could happen does any of us know the true meaning of feeling is? because feeling is something so complex even the sages still after ages haven't themselves define the truest or most correct answer of feeling is.why? is it because everybody at any stage with even the same opinion have their own feeling towards something. or simply because to show how special humans are and great God is that feeling could differentiate us all. because when someone, have feelings towards another being it is deemed sacred. but only to the bearer of that feeling. because when that feelings are broken,frustrated, does it look the same anymore? does we look at feeling as our centre of life or is it just another part which completes us. And feelings ( as if they have their own lives ) is playing games with us. As stated earlier, at this line of age we are not even close of grasping the game concept of feeling. Neither also those who ignored it which also includes the adults. Not even close but not not within reach. Games where aqal plays central role, where people around us involved directly or indirectly, environment as the backdrop with no less influence and us humans as the star actors. And it is either we play it nicely,smartly,roughly,innocently,carelessly,brutally,faithfully, or others there still will be an end and an answer to it. And until then feelings never leave us, they'll never abandon us like we did to them always. So same says just do it and let life take you where you should be or Islamicly "Allah tidak akan membantu kaum (orang) ang tidak mahu mengubah nasib mereka sendiri". What has all these connect to feelings? Ask urself.

get it over with!

a friend of mine asked me to write on this topic because a friend of him ( not surprisingly a girl ) wants to know bout it. well, miss E this what i can tell you. mind you all, this is from my own point of view it's not professional nor can be ignored. take what you think benificial, leave what you think is not parallel with your view. leave a comment if you wish. : )

boys will always talk bout what type of girl they want, from explicitly sexual type to unbelievably kind and beautiful type. yes, boys do speak of girls quite a lot, and more than you girls would think of. and normally, if someone or a group started to discuss this topic it can prolonged till staggering 3-5 hours! and along that we can hear various views of boys, some quite interesting, some are boring, some hilarious, and some seriously sexual. haha. don't be offended, boys will always be boys ( until they are matured then they are called man! ).

let me tell you what typical boys want. beautiful/good looking, manja, sporting, great physical, and more.... that from what my girl friend said are all SIDE PACKAGE. apparently boys are looking more to side package rather than the MAIN PACKAGE. but of course that's temporary and for those who are trying to find their real one will no be affected by this. well, actually maybe a little bit. those characteristics if you see through it actually means nothing than FUN! boys don't seriously get in love with you if they see a girl through those view. they just want to have fun! they want to see the girl's sexy muscular body and the ultimate goal is when they finally got the her fragile body. yes, not all boys are like that. but majority of them is like that.

this is a killer tip. when a girl do this to a boy, i highly doubt that any boy will ever let go of this girl. a girl need no good looks, need no great body, need no to be sexy as long as they APPRECIATE the boy. try imagine a typical not so wealthy, not so popular, not so handsome, not so brainiac boy. what they want is someone to APPRECIATE them. someone who actually cares bout them. someone actually gives them calmness and happiness. a girl need no those SIDE PACKAGES as long they have this trait.

i'll explain a bit on this. appreciate his style of fashion even it's not that stylo ( hard to do eh? haha ) appreciate his words even it's not so toughtful, appreciate when he called you, appreciate his absentness ( sometimes he's just into another world, don't worry give his time alone, he'll highly appreciate what you have done) appreciate every little thing he had done. ( i'm falling in love with this "girl" haha) don't let this guy do everything on his own ( give your opinion, if he need any help he'll definitely ask for it ) and boys will not let go of his grip on you!

how bout it? if you got any comment please write it down. this is my personal view. don't take things for granted. allah is the highest power in whatever you do. never forget that. assalamualaikum

another twist in love

Human's action of finding 'love' is never ending. Love to god, love to oneself, love to parents, love to lover, and love to stranger. it's strange how they devote their life in finding the one or the true love. some say it's within urself waiting to be uncovered, others say it's out there and you must act to get it. while I've seen those who actually say it's predestined, just wait and it will stumble upon you ( how contradictory to the God's words of finding your own way, solutions don't come flying to you).

Because love haven't got any real or true definition we now have many meanings or phrases describing love, what is should look like, what to expect, what to give, etc. looking at this i see the endless, unselfish act of human bonding tightly to this one kind of feeling : love. if we see in the holy quran, even Allah said love is bestowed among us, use it to the way of allah and sure it will benefit you.

I've debated with a friend not a long while ago. she ( yes, she's a girl - they surprisingly got much time thinking bout this and generally accepted that they are more emotional than men is the basis why i asked her ) said as we all are too young to be in love ( do anybody know when is the right time to love and be loved? ) we should not ask too many questions fearing it wil caught us with its feeling. and surprisingly ( actually I'm not surprised just want to stress on something , read on ) she knows a lot bout it (another contradictory based on her earlier words). well it went on to say i finally got her definition of love, when to love, etc. and all along we include our priority to abide Allah's law : everything is under His control, and we must accept what He destined for us. but one interesting topic is that when to love. According to her the best time to love is after marriage. and not surprisingly she said it's the way of islam. i agree upon what she said and what comes to my mind is how do you know that's the person that is destined for you, how do you the person is well suited for you.

I believe many people have the same mentality as me. Love is nothing like certainty. It is about exploring ourself, knowing your partner, bring the best out of them. It's an experiment! Love is worth the troubles i tell you. When you finally have that special someone everything around you just as not as important nemore! It's just you and her. well, i asked her and she said we must always pray to allah and don't question his credibility. if there's jodoh with that person, so be it. if after that it proves to be a wrong marriage ( how do we define wrong actually, is it really the other person fault or it's ours? ) then that's what is destined for us. i like to say cerai is not my favourite kind of action and because of that i'm not quite agreeing that we just accept our fate. before i continue this, just wanna tell you all that this topic is getting deeper ( like mentioning the word marriage) and please if you are not accepting this too well just live a comment. fate in islam we call qada and qadar. and the only sealed fate of us is our jodoh, death, and i cant recall the other one. because jodoh is predestined then how we know who's that person? the only positive thing to do is well. pray and always improving urself. a good man is for good woman. and how do you know if the person is not your one? you'll never know. it's quite frustating but i believe in allah the greatest decision maker of all. for us black is black but for Him black may be white in other sense. i'm not questioning allah decision, just trying to hybrid the human's rational mind and the divine revelation of allah. there's limit where mere human cant go and we must have faith to get a hint of what's there.